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This what she was when we
didn't knowed each other-
"Love is a feeling valued the most,which gives
nothing except failures, sadness and tears.I
don't believe in it.I hope I will meet someone
who'll make me believe in it"
This what she was when we
were good friends-
Here is my poem,tell me how it is .fine i'll
write two poems.Both of them are imaginary and
none of them reflects my real life-
"Lights of day dimmer soon become
nights so long as if never ends
things change as they never had
taking me to an endless road
It takes large to know
what is right
be it me or you alright
I stand at the end of your street
hoping you'll pass by
to judge you'll look into my eyes
honestly can't reach your heart
we are two world's apart"
"My flower ,i have lost it,
here i losed it,here i dropped it,
may be on the waves of the river
or may be on the cool breeze of wind
And now i strain my lonely eyes
in the deep dark blue sea
i try to search it in the breeze
which kisses me
may be the flower has faded
as my heart remains invaded...."
"To reach the sky
proove that you are harsh
to reach the height
come across the heaven
To learn to love
show your feelings
keep a heart which will make you
laugh and cry and smile"
This is what she was with passing
time and coz of this world-
"What ever you are thinking,
what ever you are hoping from me,
its impossible,you know it.
you have to forget me
there is no other way"
This what she was, when she understood
what love is ,and how much i love her-
"I felt earlier that its just an infatuation
and will go if i stay away from you,how wrong i was!
Tumharee cassatte sunne ke baad sochati hoon
ki kya koi kisi ko itna pyaar kar sakata hai!
And whenever i think this tears come into my eyes."
Is this is what love?
I don't know what to say
"Raj i have learnt what place i hold in your heart,
and though late i respect your feelings for me"
"Main tumhare dil ki khushi
chahati hoon aur tum
jise chahte ho woh
tumhe jaroor mile"
SONI
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And this what she was when we used to fight
and had our share of differences-
dearest raj
do u have any idea how much u hurt me by answering
"i don't know" when i asked u "do u think i am doing any
drama with u?"i never expected that answer from u.
raj i did'nt feel bad when u behaved like that but i got this
feeling that i am loosing u.but i did'nt protest becoz i
did'nt have any right to.....i have left u free.raj,i do
have friends who r in love,who lie at home and spend time
with their guys,but i tell u i dont have even a single
friend who is truly in love with anyone,these girls keep
changing boys seasonaly.
do u want me to be like them ,do want me to lie like them.
i hate to lie my parents, i give highest priority to my
parents and i think u too think same for ur parents.they
must be the most important for u.i dont want to hurt them in
any way.
but i ofcourse once in a while try meeting u.i know it
was my fault when i used to come to city and did'nt meet u
initially i did'nt want to meet u becoz of ur entrance exams...
but then u again got me wrong.right now bhaiya is here,that's
biggest problem.if i were not in ur life then u would have
got much better percent and would eligible for bits pilani.
raj but i have come to know one thing that "tum maira bus itna
hi intezar kar sakte the"i dont know how would u wait for me
for years to come.
look raj please give me another chance,tum jub bhi kaho ge
main tum se milne aaoongi even though i have to lie at
home.lekin aaisa mat kaho ki tum mujh se kabhi nahin
miloge,it hurts.i love u raj ,is ka main tumhe kaise yakeen
dilaaoon?
i have never ignored u,i dont ring u for doing a
favour on u.i ring to hear ur voice,but i keep silent becoz
when u r online i dont get anything to speak,but i still
want to keep holding the phone.
raj,u r the first and last person in my life about whom i am
very possessive.
i love u and whether u earn less or more
i will always be with u,supporting u,loving u.i dont want to
spend just few moments with u but i want to spend whole my
life with u raj.
love u
sonya
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And this is what she was when
we both used to miss each other-
hey raj.....
how r u?
mujhe yaad karte ho na?
mujhe to tumhari bahut yaad aati hai,tumse bhi jyaada,samjhe?
and listen,main tumhare liye khana banaoon? kabhi nahin.
guitar nahin sunane ka bahut pyaara bahana socha hai,kyon?
and you r going to return my photographs next time.
thanx for those beautiful cards and for ringing me
if anyone else would have lifted the reciever then what
kya hota?
abhi ke liye bye,
yours
sonya
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And by the time we really fell in love with each other and
understood each others importance and started missing each
other,this world played its role and this is what she gave
to me might be coz of others-
" TANHAEE "
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Aaj kareeb ek saal baad phir se mujhe meri tanhaee
ne ek aise moad pe lakar khada kar diya hai jahan
se mujhe phir se suru karni hai apni manzil ki
talaash.socha toh na tha ki phir kabhi yeh moad meri
zindagi main vapas aayega jab mujhe phir se apne
akelepan aur tanhaee ka sahara lena hoga aur vapas
un akeli galiyon se gujarna hoga jahan mujhe laga
tha ki shaayad khatam ho gayi hai meri talaash.
Tanhaee jab aur kareeb aati hai
yaadon ke badal mein jab
khushiyan kanhi kho jati hai
tab bas reh jaati hai toh woh hain
aansoo aur majbooriyan
Itni majbooriyan ki insaan chah kar bhi kuch
nahi kar pata bas dekhata reh jaata hai apne
hi aankhon ke samne apni pyaari si duniya tabah
hote hue.
Shaayad isi liye kehtein hain ki kuch bhi karo
koi bhi galti karo,bas kisise pyaar mat karo
aur agar karo bhi toh itna ki agar uske bin
jina pade toh ji sako,meri tarah nahin jo apne
aankhon ke samne apne aap ko marta hua dekhata
hai kyonki main uske bin ji nahi sakata kyunki
main usse beintehan pyaar karta hoon ,itna ki
jitna koi insaan doosre insaan se nahi kar sakta.
Aur aaj mujhe uske bin jina hai kyunki ab woh
mujhse rishta nahi rakhana chahti,kyon kyonki
kismat aisa chahti hai
Kismat ek sach ya jhooth
insaan ki majboori ya uski kamjori
ya phir apne aap se bachne ka ek raasta
ya phir mujh jaise majboor insaan ki majboori
koi nahi jaanata ki kya hai yeh kismat....
TALASH TANHAEE KI
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""Zindagi wahan tak nahin jahan tak yeh nazrein
simat jaati hain, zindagi itni badi hai ki
yeh nazrein dekh hi nahin paati hai,
mat sameto apni in nazron,yeh zindagi itni
badi hai ki ek zindagi bhi kam pad jaati hai""
-Manzil kyon paas hoke nazar aati nahin
kuch lamhon ka faasla hai par yeh faasle kam hote nahin
dil kyon nahin par kar pata in faaslon ko
intezaar karta hoon par yeh intezar khatam kyon hote nahin
Dekhte hi dekhte kitne pal gujar jaate hain
reh jaate hain hum wahin ke wahin ke wahin
dil ke aashiyane main main reh jaatein hain dard
woh dard jo khatam kabhi hote nahin
Kuch der thahar bhi jaaon to kya
kabhi badlega nahi yeh waqt
hare hue zindagi se hum kahein bhi toh kya
hare hue ko zindagi se nahi milta yeh waqt
Bhool jaaon main kya-kya
kitne palon ko bhoola doon
bhoola dena agar aasan hota
toh khood ko main bhoola doon.......
Zindagi ke safar se tha main bekhabar
tha mujhko yakeen ki mera pyaar hai mera humsafar
par kab kho gaya woh pyaar kuch pata hi nahin
kab simat gai meri duniya dil jaanata hi nahin
Chal pada hoon main jin raston par
un raston ki na toh koi manzil hain na koi pata
kahan khatam honge yeh rastein kuch bhi nahin pata
kabhin khatam honge bhi ya nahin main yeh bhi nahin janata-
-jaltein diye main se jhaankti roshni
woh roshni jo ban jaati hai kabhi
kisi gumnam zindagi ke jeene ki roshni
par kab bujh jaati hain woh diye pata hi nahin chalata
jaise bujh jaati hai kai benam gumnam zindagiyan
suraj ki roshni se agar hota hai ujala
toh kuch pal baad andhere main doob jaati hain yeh duniyan
par kyon bhool jaatein hain log ki is andhere main bhi
jagmati hai sooraj se bhi pyaari chand ki madhosh roshni
jo ujala toh nahin kar sakti par de jaati hain itni roshni
ki dhoond sake insaan andheri is duniyan main apni nishaaniyan-
-Zindagi se agar koi shikva hai
toh woh pyaar jo maine tumse kiya hai
Koi bhi nahin bas tanhaee hai
har pal bas teri yaadein aae hain
ab aur kuch nahin kehana hai
sang aansoono ke jina hai
ab har pal khood se ladna hai
ki tu mera bita sapana hai
Dil ki har dagar
har woh ek safar
nahi saath hai ab koi
koi bhi humsafar
jeena hai mujhe ab tujhe bhoolkar
jiske sang dekhe the maine sapne ji bhar kar
kya main ab karoon khood se kya kahoon
ki zindagi nahin hain sapano ka sehar
jahan jeete hain log karke khood se pyaar
kya jaanege woh doojon ka dard
Bas khatam ho jaaye zindagi ab yahin
bechain tadapti yeh aankhen ab roti kyon nahin
ab aur dard nahin hota hai sahan
kar liye karne the jitne jine ke liye jatan
kyon pyaar is dil se hota nahin kam
yeh pyaar hi hai zindagi ka sabse bada zakhm
nahi is zakhm ka koi marham
sadiyon ke liye hain uske diye har gham-
-Khusiyon ki thi kabhi woh ek pahar
jab sang thi woh mere main tha duniyan se bekhabar
har pal karta tha uska main besabri se intezar
har taraf tha pyaar bas pyaar hi pyaar
Na jaane kab sab chooth gaya
kab jaane woh sapana toot gaya
kab aankhon se ojhal mera pyaar ho gaya
sab kuch jaise bas tham sa gaya
bas aansoon hi aansoon aur mera dil kahin kho sa gaya
bin uske jaise sab kuch rooth gaya
Uski woh pyaari si muskurahat
uske aankhon ki woh pyaari si chahat
uske pairon ki woh halki si aahat
sab kuch basa tha is dil main mere
Jab toote sapnay
sang unke toota main
nahi jaan saka kya khata thi
is dil ki mere
jis dil main basi thi
uski pyaari si mohabbat-
-Duniya main bahut
dekhe hain takdeerwale
par poochata hoon usse
jo banata hai takdeer
kya mera pyaar jhootha tha
ya nahi thi
mere haathon main
uske pyaar ki lakeer-
-Mera kya tha wahi
jo kisi aur ka na tha
mohabbat main mila jo dard
woh mera tha kisi aur ka na tha
door kahi ek aashiyane main
maine ek khwaab dekha
un khwaabon ka kya tha
unhe bhi to tootna hi tha-
-Sochata hoon kabhi
kisi aashiyane main kahi
milegi mujhe meri
khushiyan
agar haan to
kab
aur agar nahi
to kyon?-
-Tanhaee ke aangan main
kabse khada tha main akela
socha milegi mujhe
mere pyaar ki chaaon
par jaane kabyaadon
ka andhera chaaya
sab kuch kho gaya
suna ho gaya mere sapano ka gaon-
-Saalon baad aaj bhi
wahi meri tanhaee hai
saalon aaj bhi mujhe
teri yaadein tadpati hain
nazrein band kar leta hoon
soch ke tu nazar nahi aayegi
par bhool jaata hoon ki tu
mere dil main hi nahi mere saanson main bhi samaee hai
Saalon baad aaj bhi
wahi meri tanhaee hai
har pal bas dard
aur ruswayee hai
tere jaane se
dard ki ghadi aai hai
aisa lagata hai ki jaise
har pal bas khusiyon ki vidaai hai
doob jaata itni yaadon
ki gehraee hai
kya kahoon har pal
in aankhon main tanhaee hai-
LOVE YOU SONI
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A story of a boy named raj, of how he finds a meaning
to his life by loosing various things in life,by
learning the truths of life and how he finds that
either he can get his own happiness or else he will
loose everything even his true love if he tries to
find and give meaning to his life. its nothing but a
story of innocence lost in this big world where his
love soni, a girl whom he met while searching for a
meaningful life or in whose innocence he finds his
happiness,is his life but has to leave her if he has
to look into his eyes where he will say he has found
the meaning of his life but lost his love,soni.
Raj met soni on a journey of love to find whether his
love is his destination or his reason to believe that
there is something more than just love coz love is
reflections of pains which made him understood what
life is?
Raj through the eyes of love came to understand the
fact that whether its happiness or sadness,always
believe in love and truth of helping others and giving
others happiness no matter what you loose coz its love
which makes believe that if you live for others then
only you can look into your eyes and say yes i have
everything i could have done for my true love and can
look in our own eyes and can happily say that i have
done my job what my love left for me to do and make
the world belive that love is not just to love someone
but to live for someone.
LOVE YOU SONI
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